Monday, October 17, 2005

No Hope

I really, really don't think it will be a BFP in the morning. It's deductive reasoning. 12dpo and nothing, not even a faint mark? If that was implantation spotting last week then something sure didn't take that 5 days later there is nothing on an HPT.

It could easily have been related to my spleen qi deficiency. My spleen/stomach channel were all messed up by my illness last week. My tongue was super coated with white -- it looked awful.

I want a BFP as much (if not more) than the (average) next gal but I just am not feeling it. It's weird isn't it how you can convince yourself you are and then just as easily convince yourself that you are not.

No it doesn't get any easier.

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