Thursday, July 27, 2006

Thoughts on the First Trimester Screening

I have the option of doing this test if I want (all tests are optional really though) and I sort of always dreaded the thought of making a decision about it. Now, being here at almost 11 weeks, the decision is in front of me squarely -- and I find my instincts, my being, is telling me not to do it.

It's taken me four years to get this far -- which is why I'm now over 36. We've had two losses, early on, but both of them were drawn out over weeks, not to say months for the first one (July-October). I also had fibroid surgery -- and I've got a new fibroid growing.

I'll have a c-section either way, due to the fibroid surgery. I'm in a major city with an excellent hospital so it's not like labor is going to cause any complications. But none of that is my concern.

Having lived through my losses, I know the stress that waiting can bring when you already have the bad news. It's not something I want to bring on myself. It would be crushing for me, and I don't see any good that will come of it. I didn't ever due ART or hormones or anything, opting instead to find other means of healing my body enough to let it be able to carry (other than the needed surgery). I think even if I end up with a sick baby, I will feel more at peace with that than with knowing -- there's nothing to prepare for, what happens happen. I would rather let fate or God have a hand in it and just live with that outcome.

Come what may.

5 comments:

Anonymous said...

I think by doing the test you prepare yourself, spouse and your doctor for any complications. For me even if a my baby had an abnormality I would still keep the pg. But to be prepared and to gather info is optimal in my book.The wait for the AFP test is 7 to 10 days. The u/s of course is instant as long as your doctor is doing it. Amnio does have some wait time but if the blood test and u/s come out good you will not have to do the amnio. I know that you will do all the research necessary. I am curious to find out what your dr said about the "natural csection". I had 2 csections and I would of loved to have mine like that.
deb

Anonymous said...

Just checking in with you. Wow!!!! There's a baby in there. Really cool. I'm stoked for you. It's fun to check in on you now and then and hear how things are. I'm rootin' for you and Baby Worthwhile. : )

Joelle

Anonymous said...

Well congratulation I have been reading your post of and on for the last two years. I to am faced with the same challenges but you have given me inspiration. I hope everything goes well. God Bless

Anonymous said...

Well congratulation I have been reading your post of and on for the last two years. I to am faced with the same challenges but you have given me inspiration. I hope everything goes well. God Bless

Hilde said...

I didn't do any tests, and I was happy with that decision.