Saturday, February 17, 2007

I found that as I got closer to the end of my pregnancy I started to be able to let more of my fears go and just be. I hope you will find the same as you get into those final weeks where the baby's health even if s/he should come early is more certain. I still am amazed at how long it took for us to get here, but I learned so much along the way (not that it was all willingly experienced) that I know I'm stronger for it

I've talk to my partner some in the past few days about how many tears I shed thinking that we would never get here -- negative doctors, difficult diagnoses, our losses, the surgeries, etc. And, for all the times my partner was like "it doesn't matter to me either way if we have a baby" he's now totally in love with his baby and he's upstairs right now working on editing songs from his band on the computer with Jonah in a pouch and he can't wait to have the chance to bottle feed him in a few weeks.

I don't know if one can ever totally reconcile what infertility does to you, but in the present moment there is such a sense of satisfaction and joy at being able to take care of this perfect little guy (with his tiny puss) that I can honestly say I'm happy -- tired yes, but happy.

My animals have been a little out of sorts, but mostly they are doing well. One cat pooped in the hallway the other day but I've been slowly showing him the baby, giving him extra attention (or even just more of the regular attention he's used to) and extra brushing and he seems like he's relaxing about it a bit.

We are co-sleeping at the moment and rather liking it -- all three of us. It makes it easier to give each other a bit of a break over night, even if just for a couple of hours, to know that the other one is one duty with the baby. We've also had some giggles with middle of the night diaper changes when we put the diaper on the wrong way or the baby decides to shoot out some poop right as you are in the middle of changing him into a new one -- twice in the space of a minute. We'll continue to make adjustments as needed though as my partner is going to have to be able to get a bit more rest overnight so I'll be likely doing more changes and feedings in the nursery in the coming weeks. My partner goes back to work tomorrow -- only 4 days off though he's going to work from home when he can, and work shortened hours.

I've got to eat some lunch before we head out to the pediatricians for a little check-up. Since we are nursing they wanted to have Jonah checked a couple days after we left the hospital for hydration, jaundice and weight. The kid has been nursing so vigorously and soiling so many diapers that I would be surprised if he isn't over his birth weight already.


Anonymous said...

Jonah is adorable - congratulations Mommy!


Anonymous said...

Congratulations on the birth of your son he is beautiful. I have been following your blog for the last 2 years and your joureny has been an inpsiration for me. I to have similar issues had my myo last Sept, now having acu.

Anonymous said...

Congrats! He is beautiful. His name is so sweet. Glad to hear all is well.

Anonymous said...

Congratulations! I love the name Jonah! Biblical names always have such profound meanings...and such a name is fitting for a baby who comes at the end of such a journey. I am so pleased for you that the journey has come to a happy end!


Anonymous said...

I'm very happy for you. You've been through a long journey to get here. I'm glad you are happy. Congratulations. I'm still on the journey. Hopefully I'll get to where you are now.

Thanks for all your support and info on the ttcmyomectomy board. I hope you'll stop by and share every once in a while.


Hetty Fauxvert said...

Congratulations!!!! Jonah IS adorable -- and what great eyes! He looks very alert already. Sounds like you and your two sweeties (the old and the new) are all settling in beautifully. I'm so happy for you that all the myo issues and so forth have finally resolved to this terrific conclusion. Yay!!!

Ann J.

Anonymous said...

Congratulations Ann !!!

Jonah Blue is gorgeous !


Crystal said...

Very happy for you! That is the cutest pic of Jonah.

Anonymous said...

First of all, congratulations!!! He's a beautiful little boy.

I was wondering though, did they take out the other fibroid while they were in there for the c/s?

How did the c/s compare to your myo. I had 19 fibroids removed a little over a year ago (yep 19-sure was fun), still not sure if pregnancy is even an option for me (damaged fallopian tube), but I was curious about the c/s.

Enjoy your son. He really is a cutie.